I feel unease. I’m getting nervous. I’m troubled.
I know I should hate you. For leaving me.
I should be thanking you. For staying faithful until the end.
I must not look for you. Because it brings me false hopes.
I don’t have the words but I have the need to speak.
Silence on the outside but inside there are a lot of noise. I can’t seem to find peace and quiet.
My visa got approved today and certainly that is a reason to be happy because my Taiwan trip is now a sure go!
And I started my day with somehow a clear head and heart.
I find comfort in writing senseless rants. It alleviates my anxiety and stress. So if whoever reads this finds it too dramatic that I cannot deal with it alone, go away.
As the title states. I’m lost.
Warning: long rant.